I believe that the holiday blues have set in already (No, I do not consider Halloween a holiday). I can't explain it really, but I believe that it stems back from the fact that I am not feeling all giddy inside. The holidays are not about the giddiness (If that is a word); they are simply remembering what God has blessed us with (I have also had a problem with this department as well).
The hard part comes from the fact that you see all these lovely families, the mothers and fathers with their children. Don't get me wrong; I have a lovely family (my parents, sister, friends, and daughter). I want that "happy life" with the immediate family. God does not always promise us happiness and a family. That is not an easy pill to swallow.
It is even harder, when you receive a glimpse of what your life could be, then it is put "on hold" for minor reasons that are out of your control. Again, God does not want us to be in control. We have to allow Him to be in control (I struggle with this as well).
So, give everything to God, whether big or small, and He will give you comfort. I know what I need to do, so I will do just that. I have to take life as God gives it.
I am reminded on a daily basis as to how short life is . . . I need to live life as though it is my last. I must seek opportunities to share God and how He has worked in my life. I might need to take that leap of faith, and be real. I need to remember that God is always with me no matter what happens.
