Diddy - Dirty Money - Coming Home ft. Skylar Grey

"Getting back to the place I belong . . ." I know that life is hard. It is not fun. It is like living in perpetual high school. It is bad enough that I work in a high school every day, but my life is still like that. I want to get back to that simpleness of life.

The simple life . . . Knowing that your significant other loves you and you love him, you have children, and sure there are issues, but that does not involve cheating or lying. I know that it can exist.

Some times, I feel that I deserve that and some times I feel that I do not. When I really look at myself, I realize that I am just as guilty as any sinner. I realized that I married my best friend, and that was a right decision. What was not right, was the fact that I realized 13 years too late that I cared for another friend when it was too late.

When I look at my life, I wish that I could change a few things, but I would not be the person that I am today if I had changed anything. Maybe one day, things will be simple again. I know that it is possible if I am being real. I have been real with my old friend, but the pain must be too much, or maybe the truth was stretched.

All I know is that I want to come home again to a family instead of staring at walls of emptiness.